Monthly Archives: November 2018

Admitting When You’re Wrong: What Tarot Is, and What It Isn’t <3<3

I’ve recently had a very humbling experience as a professional tarot reader, one that challenged my beliefs but also reunited me with my core integrity and refreshed my understanding of how exactly tarot works — what it does, what it does not do, with a very clear picture of “where” the information provided in a tarot reading comes from.

This experience has inspired me to lay out for you my original/newfound understanding, presented in the form of a three-card tarot reading. Whenever I feel unsure of myself, tarot is always there to get me back on track; this is partly of tarot DOES do.

I can hear you asking “so, what happened?!?” This will be a drawn-out story, which I’ll begin by sharing the only other time someone has told me a reading was outright “wrong:” it was a $5 One-Card Etsy reading, with a long, detailed question and the astrological information for the person being read for and their partner. I truly care about all of my clients, and so against my better judgment, I actually did a big synastry report out of curiosity, drew the one card, and gave her the advice. I knew sending it it wouldn’t be what she wanted to hear, but I felt it was for her highest good; she sent me a scathing review saying I don’t know anything, I’m the worst, I didn’t answer her question, etc etc. I handled it well knowing I answered her question to the best of my ability, and took it as confirmation to listen to my intuition when I know I’m going out of my way/above and beyond.

That brings me to my current situation, which has one similarity to the previous “wrong” advice. Like the other time, this client wanted to know what another person was thinking. They wanted to know what another person had done, what their motivations were, and it began to spiral into wanting to know additonal, further removed individual’s parts in the situation. From the very beginning I tried to assert that Third Party readings are a big no-no; my original pamphlet actually said this:

…I should probably add that part back in…

Truly, tarot is NOT for reading minds. It may seem like it reads yours because it presents to you exactly what is going on with you, but that it is because it IS a reading of the energy presently surrounding *you,* and is a perfect tool for accessing and understanding your own Higher Self.

The “Higher Self” is a fancy word for your intuition, and you can picture it as the ultimate version of you, hanging out above your head, relaxed, with full knowledge of everything that has ever happened to you across lifetimes, a complete and total understanding of your present situation, and a real eye on the future and the direction things are headed. When you come for a reading, our Higher Selves intermingle and the best way to communicate what your cards read is filtered through to me, resulting in the advice I provide. In the same way, when you read for yourself, the images you see in the cards triggers something in your Higher Self and the connection is made between the imagery and your own reality as your minds bends around what you’re seeing and what you already know to be true.

Here is where I will split the tarot deck, asking for the “surface” answer to “what is tarot for?”

Tarot is for grounding yourself in your purpose and finding new ways to think about your life <3<3

The card on the bottom of the deck initially was the 9 of Pentacles, which is so aligned with what I understand tarot to be FOR — for grounding yourself in your achievements, for finding ways to feel proud of all you have earned, and to illuminate where your loyalties are, from a place of healthy self-centeredness. The cut card, which I always take meaning from, is the Ace of Swords — indeed, tarot is meant to show you a fresh way of thinking, to help you look at things in a different way, that allows you to “stab forth” and continue to make your way through life’s wilderness <3<3<3

Ironically, the 9 of Pents was a real “stalker” in that Third Party reading situation — a constant beacon that the client needed to come back “home” to herself, to take back her power, to consider her own needs instead of so completely giving away any shred of agency she otherwise had.

So, what is tarot NOT? 4 of Cups: it’s not going to “give you the answers,” per se — it lays out your options, it shows you what’s true for *you*, and asks you to do the work to lift your head up and see your own reality with new eyes. It asks you to get up from your slump, to see what’s disappointed you, and to choose to take action towards what will fulfill you instead <3<3<3<3

What IS tarot? Page of Wands. A way to re-inspire yourself, to reignite your spark, to remind you that you are your own magic wand! Aligned with that Ace of Swords cut card, it’s a way to find your fire and blast you out of the desert, getting your creativity flowing again and showing you much more there is to learn about yourself and your passions — tarot reminds you that you are a student of Life, and the lessons never cease — the zest you bring to your studies determines how the road goes <3<3<3<3

My best advice for relaying what tarot is and what it is not? III – The Empress. How lovely <3<3<3 Tarot is a beautiful way to find comfort in your reality, to “mother yourself” with some super-deep advice, to connect with your own inner nature and learn more about how to ground yourself within your personal flow. Tarot is a way to identify what and how you love, and is an incredible way to observe and track personal growth.

The Shadow and Higher Self cards are rather tongue-in-cheek; obviously the situation that launched this post was about a relationship reading, and truly, Love is the main topic that people want readings on <3<3<3 How can you read on love if Third Party readings are a no-no? Well, you can read on how to be a better partner yourself, you can read on what would be the ideal relationship for you, you can read on what you can know about how a relationship is affecting you personally… and so on and so forth, as long as you keep the questions centred on you, keep the ball in your own court, and keep your highest intention for the reading being to find out what your dreams for yourself are and how you can make them come true <3<3<3

Above all, that is absolutely what tarot is for: to show you what is working in your life, what is not, and how to make adjustments in order to stay on-track. All summer those readings advised maintaining life outside of that Third Party situation, of maintaining personal integrity, that forgiveness was key to moving forward one way or another… it can be so hard to hear that sort of thing when you truly believe that knowing “the Truth” is all that will set you free… but another’s Truth is not yours to know unless they tell you. You can only know yours, and that is exactly what tarot CAN do <3<3

I had to swallow my pride and admit that I was wrong in this situation — not that I had read the cards wrong, no indeed, as I maintain my trust that what the cards say is 100% representative of hat can be known about the overall situation in the moment. The reason they didn’t reveal “the truth” was because that was not information we were privy to, where that Third Person was not aware of the reading or of the attempt on their psychic privacy. I was wrong to lead my client to believe that was possible; I’m a Pisces who wishes I could just make everyone feel better, and this situation taught me that even the best intentions can do more harm than good. Now I know to firmly maintain my stance on keeping the spotlight on my client alone, remembering that my job is to help them find, regain, and maintain their personal power, all while treating tarot and that precious Higher Self connection with utmost respect.

Deck used:

The Rider-Waite Tarot Deck. Illustrated by Pamela Coleman Smith. Stamford, CT: U.S. Games Systems, Inc. 1999 edition.

Full Moon in Taurus Manifestation Circle Recap

On October 22, we had our very first Full Moon Manifestation Circle at Blind Forest Books <3<3 It was an amazing and powerful experience for everyone who attended!! I’m getting so excited for the Full Moon in Gemini Manifestation Circle this coming Monday, November 19, that I wanted to relive the last one and share it with you all <3<3<3

Abundant grapes growing naturally in my backyard the day of the Full Moon Manifestation Circle <3<3<3

Our Full Moon Manifestation Circles are gatherings of like-minded individuals who come together to share hopes, wishes, dreams, and goals, looking forward at the month ahead and touching on the astrological currents to come. The Full Moon in Taurus occurred at 0 degrees, opening infinite potential in the area of personal comfort, abundance, luxury, and major self-care <3<3<3 Together we used Blind Forest’s popular Full Moon Manifestation Kits, and I am thrilled to be noticing what I manifested really coming together! One of my main goals was taking better care of myself through eating in the morning/eating more healthily and consciously, and I feel so much more energized having taken the initiative to fulfill that goal.

The idea for these groups was a totally random blessing, delivered as an idea from an individual who thought putting something like this together would suit me — wowee!! Ever since life has felt that much more magical, as though the full commitment to understanding and moving with the Moon has allowed even more cool things to shift <3<3 An example of the lovely synchronicities that are happening all the time: the morning of the Moon group, the deck I’d gifted myself for my tarot business’ 3-year anniversary this month arrived the day of the Manifestation Circle, and inside was a picture of the Full Moon against a mauvey sky — almost identical to a picture I took of the Moon earlier that evening!

Mauvey Moon
Mauvey Moon in Magical Dogs box, feat. Ra the Sun God

It was such an incredible feeling coming in to the store the day after this event, fondly coming upon the aftermath of all the excitement — the Manifestation ritual involves writing wishes on bay leaves and burning them <3<3<3 Positively exhilarating! We had a particularly powerful moment where one of the tissue paper placemats caught fire (learn as you go hahaha), much to everyone’s delight! It burned up quickly and spectacularly with no need for the fire extinguisher <3<3<3

Morning=after Love <3<3<3

Even better, each participant got a Taurus-themed swag bag!! I had so much fun putting them together. The swag bags included Taurus Crystal Kits, Green Aventurine necklaces, caramels, and tea n’ cakes-themed stickers <3<3

Prepping the swag bags!

If you’re interested in attending our next Full Moon Manifestation Circle,  it’s this coming Monday, November 19, from 7:30 to 9:30 pm <3<3 Drop in, call, or message to reserve your spot! 

Tea Leaf Reading: How to Get Unstuck?

This post is the first in a series demonstrating how a tea leaf reading with me works — the thought that goes into tea and deck selection, and the types of messages that can be gained from the symbols found in the tea leaves.

This reading was done with Mint Chocolate Orange Pekoe tea, a black tea with a little extra “oomph” added. Black tea is great for general readings, while Mint tea is perfect for readings on wealth and abundance and rich flavours like Chocolate add luxuriousness, and send the message to your Higher Self that you are ready to indulge and satisfy your own needs. How perfect for this reading, meant to identify any blocks to the flow of abundance and creativity; I selected the Nature-Speak Oracle for its powerful, grounding messages and inspiring imagery, perfect for reconnecting with the flow of life and finding ways to keep growing.

As the tea steeped, we looked at the cards — zap, a little slap!! From these cards we learn that the main reason for this sense of stuckness and creative block is actually related to something emotional — before further progress can be made, there is a need to quite literally “balance the emotions.” The Advice card confirms that there will be no “New growth” until emotional needs are met and the “Inner Air” is purified, allowing those creative fires to start producing again. At least commitment to better health was already indicated in choosing a chocolatey tea, right…? Lol!

And so, let’s look into the tea cup for Advice on how to balance those emotions and promote new growth…

It almost looks like a tea party right in the cup! On the left we have a long-necked goose-looking figure, in the middle a big hulking figure that reminds me of the Beast from Beauty and the Beast, sitting cross-legged and looking at the figure on the right, who looks like some sort of hermit-dragon.

Looking closer at the goose, we see that it is looking forward, towards the future. It has an optimistic stance, and it is plump and healthy-looking. It does have a very thin neck so it may be fearful of “putting itself out there” with something that it has created and nurtured tenderly and with all its heart — geese are known to be very loyal, and excellent, nurturing parents. It looks like the goose has a unicorn horn or a little pointed hat on; either way, this creative effort is touched with magic, and the person can know that they are truly blessed to begin and will be supported throughout the endeavour.

Next we see that hulking beast! His yogic position hints at the Beast’s true temperament — looks can be deceiving, and as we know, the Beast has a heart of gold. It could be that the project you feel so blocked about, that you’re feeling so emotionally invested in to the point of being paralyzed re: progress, would be completely transformed with a simple vow of personal dedication; simply “sitting” with the project, expecting nothing from it but to coexist for a while, will lead to beautiful and unexpected changes. The Beast looks so eager, one arm propped jauntily on one crossed leg, turned in profile to look at the third figure, the hermit-dragon.

Looking at it up close I wonder why I’m so attached to calling this a dragon, but I do find it interesting as Mint tea loves to read on abundance and areas where growth is ready to happen. That I found it to look like a Hermit is also interesting, directly aligning it with the Beast — they are actually looking each other directly in the eyes — they are conversing about the project, thinking on ways to bring it out of the Shadows. But not just yet, there needs to be more time to focus, to seek love for the Self, to connect with the Inner Fire, to meditate, ground, and recenter.

Turning the cup over, the image changes: here we see what looks like an Easter Island head on spider-legs like the baby-head in Toy Story scuttling out the left-hand side of the cup; it’s time to let go of the ideas that were good in theory, but are aren’t necessarily the direction you’re thinking in anymore. The middle figure become a witch-like figure wearing a headwrap, head same size as body, wearing a dress and holding her finger to her chin in contemplation; she is looking forward to the future, and the tip of her nose is being licked by a shaggy dog with a long giraffe neck and similarly miniature body. We have two guides present in this cup, the Hermit and the Witch; this would be a good time to seek advice from people who have succeeded in your field, who could bring fresh ideas and energy to the project. The licking dog reminds to have fun with the process, expect the unexpected, but know that all of what’s coming to you now is from a place of love and support — you may have to crane your neck to maintain a balanced perspective on things, but trust and loyalty are on your side.

Flipping the cup again, it looks like the vice from a big construction vehicle! Push through this period of stalling, knowing it is a matter of re-centering, then powering up to scoop. scoop, scoop more of what you know empowers you so much! It’s reaching for something out the North-West side of the Cup, indicating that you’re poised to manifest something directly related to your natural gifts, your personal “super power.”On the right it looks like there’s gleeful fox-face getting ready to eat a fly or butterfly — you’re ready to look for ideas that pique your interest, ingest them, and get even more excited as a result! Butterflies in your stomach, here you come!

A final turn, and we see a much larger dragon head, its body curved down to look at a cawing crow with a unicorn horn, symbolic of a magical connection with the Otherworld being established — listen closely to “signs” like numbers, animals, and other patterns, as these are the ways spirit guides communicate. In the background we see a second little hooded Hermit, almost Santa-Clause like, retreating with a hobo-pack on a pole, much like the Fool’s bag on the tarot card. The large, contemplative dragon symbolizes not fearing your passion-ideas, trusting them to age well and to longevity. The retreating Hermit represents the gift of allowing yourself to “come and go as you please” where it comes to utilizing creative energy — this type of thing can’t be forced, and when it is, it’s only to your own emotional detriment. One way or another you always have everything you need <3<3

Our main symbols in this tea cup were dragons and hermits, with dogs/foxes/animals and birds a close third and fourth. It’s time to trust your passion, and to know that it’s actually okay to “pull back” sometimes — these periods of self-care are necessary, and even though it sucks when they manifest in the form of creative black, that’s a sure sign that you need a personal time out to regain your balance in favour of proceeding when you’re feeling stronger. Your loyalties have been established and you know where your support system lies, and so it’s a great time to just relax and receive — in fact, the inspiration you seek is on its way and will soon be noticed <3<3<3

Deck used:

The Nature-Speak Oracle. Ted Andrews. Jackson, TN: Dragonhawk Publishing, 2006.

11:11:11

Wow, it’s 11:11! Not only is November (11th month) the 11th an powerful day vibrationally, this is also an 11 YEAR (2+0+1+8=11), making today an especially potent day for manifesting and furthering your personal goals. Make a wish! <3<3<3<3

It’s been a while since I shared a follow-through reading, and today felt like the perfect time to dive back in! For today’s reading, drawn from Oracle of the Mermaids, Angel Tarot Cards, and Tarot of Mermaids, I intended to receive the most relevant message for everyone who sees this to make use of this important energetic gateway <3<3<3<3

1111 reading card backs

To begin, let’s look at the Shadow Cards, the cards at the bottom of the deck after shuffling — these indicate the energy that brings you to the reading:

1111 reading shadow cards

Shadow Cards: 34. Yemaya reversed + 9 of Water + 2 of Wands

Yes, an important realization recently has been that you’re ready to “break away from tradition.” You’ve allowed yourself to realize that things don’t have to be the same for you as they are for other people, as they were for your parents especially — this is a new day and age, and things need to change. Difference is fine, it’s when comparison sneaks in that problems arise! Truly, you know what you want for yourself, and it’s okay if that doesn’t match up with what other people think would be best for you. You are exactly where you need to be in the process of creating your glowing future — everything is changing societally, including definitions of what it means to be a “success,” and all that matters right now is that you know you are needed here, now, and as you are <3<3<3

1111 reading main cards

Oracle Cards: 5. Song of the Siren + 1 – The Magician

Indeed, you are ready to sing your heart’s song!! Your struggles have empowered you and find you so deeply connected with your own spirit — as a result, your innate gifts are bubbling up and are now ready to be shared. This self-expression will not only feel deeply healing for you and your soul, it will also facilitate healing in others — you have such important perspective on all that you’ve come through, and you are now in a position to make use of your emotional toolbox in a very real, very tangible, very creative/artistic way. you’re really making it through the midpoint now, and the road ahead is bright — things are different here in that now you actually have what you need, and you are thrilled to be able to start making further use of what you’ve gathered <3<3

Main Cards

Where to Focus: Page of Swords

Over the past month or so, almost every reading, client and personal, contained the Page of Swords reversed, indicating that we were only hesitating about moving forward because we sensed the time wasn’t right. Well, the time has come, and it’s time to get curious! Keep learning, keep growing, keep exploring all the new lines of thought you’ve been uncovering and being inspired by <3<3 Winter is knocking and with it comes the natural time to go within, to embrace the Inner World, and to keep it fun and sparkling with fresh mental pursuits and stimulations. You’re getting excited just reading this as you know exactly what you’ve picked up recently that you can;t wait to dive deeper into — you sense that this will become a much larger pinpoint in the overall picture <3<3<3

What to Release: King of Pentacles

Truly, it’s time to release outdated ideas of what it means to be “stable,” to be secure, and as mentioned above, to be a “success.” Clutching rigidly to concepts that aren’t even relevant to our current reality only sets us back further — it’s time to carve out your own definitions, to tell yourself what makes you feel like you are whole and healthy and provided for and let that be enough. Easier said than done when well-meaning people who have already established themselves offer advice from that place of stability, as it can feel cruel to feel so unseen in your pit of much-less-than. These are the moments to count your blessings and keep dreaming — not in line with what anyone tells you you deserve or can do, but in line with what you actually want, with what you know you can do, from day to day, moment to moment, and allow yourself to start from there <3<3<3 No should’ves, would’ves, could’ves — remember: you are exactly where you need to be!

Energy to Increase: King of Wands

I had to laugh seeing this one after the King of Pents as the release card — yes, this is a time to listen to your passion, because it’s on fire! You’re fully feeling the “free spirit” thing, excited to continue the path the philosophies you’ve been studying and integrating have found you on. This is such a cool creative moment where you’re feeling led by your Higher Self, aware that everything happening is part of something much larger — you are fully in control of your creative direction at the moment, and your energy levels are rising up to meet your ambitions. Keep getting excited and go go go! Allow yourself to break free from what’s been done before, slam the door on the past, and push forward — there is so much more cool excitement and deeper spiritual revelations to be had <3<3<3

Best Advice: Ace of Wands

Yes, take up your “wand!” You are creating magic in you life, as a direct result of commiting to going with the flow. you came reeeally close to a total burnout moment, but you took control, you delegated responsibility, and now here you are — free to really run with a particular creative endeavour that you are so, so ready to keep going with <3<3<3 I love how the mermaid is literally “tits up” — it’s time to put yourself out there, share what inspires you so! It will involve making yourself a bit vulnerable, sure, but the connections that will result are so, so worth the effort it takes to strike the match <3<3<3

Now for the Higher Self Cards, the cards at the top of the deck after shuffling, which represent a message of hope moving forward <3<3<3

1111 reading higher self cards

Higher Self Cards: 23. Dreams + 10 – The Wheel + 6 of Swords

Keep dreaming <3<3<3 The seasons are not the only thing changing — look back over the past year! You are a much different person now, much stronger, and so, so ready for the further incubation that the coming Winter months have to offer. See this period as a time for seeking warmth, for surrounding yourself with comfort and soul-fuel, and this is the final phase of healing necessary for the exciting lurch forward that 2019 will bring. Keep charging, keep absorbing, hold yourself tight — a new dawn is coming and while it’s still a ways off, for you the healing has already begun — You Are Exactly Where You Need To Be <3<3<3<3

If you’re interested in a private reading with me, head over to my Etsy shop! Feel free to use the coupon code THANKS15 for 15% off your reading at checkout <3<3<3

Decks used:

Angel Tarot Cards. Doreen Virtue and Radeigh Valentine. Artwork by Steve A. Roberts. Carlsbad, CA: Hay House, Inc., 2012.

Oracle of the Mermaids. Lucy Cavendish. Artwork by Selina Fenech. Victoria, Australia: Blue Angel Publishing, 2013.

Tarot of Mermaids. Lo Scarabeo. Llewellyn Publications, 2003.